I was overwhelmed Sunday, while taking communion, by the renewed realization of what Christ did for me that day on the Cross. Such a mixture of emotions from sadness to thankfulness created the same result of tears.
On the one hand, thankfulness for the fact that because of Him this world, this body, is not the only home I have to look forward to. In fact, scripture tells me that, as a child of God, I am an alien in this world. That this world is actually not my home but just a temporary place to stay until I catch my ride to my real home, Heaven.
1 Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. 11 Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul.
Then there is the sadness due to the fact that I, someone that wasn't even born yet, was the reason He did this. He left Heaven, a place of peace, purity and perfection to come to this earth full of darkness, devastation and discontent to become the sacrifice that would turn this world upside down. To offer us a new home that we would not otherwise have access to if not for Him. He endured things that we can't really imagine. The physical pain He endured would have done me in after the first lash of the cat of nine tails tipped with shards of glass. I would have called Heaven and all the angels to destroy those inflicting this pain on me as well as those who stood by and did nothing to stop them. But most hurtful of all is the fact that because of the purity of God, unable to be in the presence of sin, turned away from His only Son, even if only for a short time. How that must have not only hurt Jesus but God as well. But the fact that Jesus was willing to endure all this and more brought me such guilt and pain that I did that to Him. Me, Sharon, a sinner. One that still struggles with sin and living in the desires of the flesh at times instead of living by the spirit.
Thank you, Jesus, for putting God's will before yours and thinking of me and not yourself. Even that's hard to say. Thank you. It seems so selfish. But what he did was necessary for my eternal life filled with the presence of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I can only imagine!!!
When did you come to the realization the He died for you?
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~Sharon
Amen, Sister!
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